And I’m back to thinking that the £80 paid for two years hosting was a waste again. I’ve just spent an absolute age trying to work out why the RSS feeds aren’t working properly and why the SQL stupid things were being retarded. I really have little aptitude for this at all, I thought I’d pick it up easily enough, but it’s just a nightmare. If I was on that course it’d be so much easier, as I could get help from the tutors and stuff, I’d be in a learning environment, but sitting here is more akin to relaxation and time-wasting.
Random Fury, on the whole, is great. But all it will ever be is a Halo 2 clan. I want more, I want to get a community going, for online games, high score challenges, gaming banter, and as much as the guys do visit the existing forum and contribute, the last two areas for expansion failed miserably.
Pretty soon I’m just gonna just throw in the towel in pretty much every aspect of my life and just resign myself to working on a till in Sainsburys for the rest of my life.
Finally unlocked the last custom colour scheme for Direct Assault on the PS2 version, it was literally years ago that I 100%ed the Dreamcast version, seems a lifetime ago.
You never remember how hard area 2 is to 100%…
Listening to the soundtrack is one thing, but playing the game with headphones is just so much better.
Oh yeah, we’re playing that new 360 mag this evening, should be a laugh, and a nice bit of publicity for RF. Lovely.
Since the courses have been cancelled I’ve been wandering around for a week just not knowing what to do or how to get things back on track. Applied for a couple more jobs, got turned down, what the fuck?
Ah, bollocks to it, I’m going to play Rez in the dark with it turned up really loud through my earphones.
I was going to go and “pwn” some “nubs” at Gamestaion today, they were doing a Bomberman tourney with “Prizes Galore” on offer. Being the grizzled Bomberman Online veteran that I am, I’m sure I would’ve put those little buggers in their place and walked away with the prize.
But I couldn’t be bothered, and my tummy hurts.
The ultrasound was fun, in a sarcastic not fun type way.
The lady kept making noises like “A-ha”, “Ooh”, “Hmm” and “Eh”, and after she was done told me that my Liver was fine. No mention of all the other internal bits she was looking at while making noises. Got to go back to my GP in two weeks, I’m dreading it, something else will be wrong.
Got my ultrasound later today, should be fun. Two of my Liver markers are above average, only just, so I’ve got to go and get it looked at just to be on the safe side. Not allowed to eat 6 hours before the scan, I had some Cheerio’s this morning, but now I’m a bit peckish.
The two courses that I needed to enrol for are not happening this year as so few people expressed an interest in them. Oh well. I had a chat with one of the other guys at the College, but there was nothing else they could offer that I felt I wanted to do.
I fall for the false promises every time, silly me.
Almost got the courses sorted out, had a couple of issues though… No-one at the college could find the guy I had to have a little interview with to make sure I’d chosen the right course, and the people at the Jobcentre were doing their best to wind me up again, I’d have to go through the New Deal or some shit, and the person who could authorize it is on holiday for the next two weeks.
It’s weird, if I had to do that 5 years ago I would’ve probably just walked away and made excuses, being really timid and shy. But I’ve noticed a certain air of confidence in my actions recently, it may be the Prozac, might be the fact I really want to do this, I dunno, but it opened my eyes.
It’s surprising I’ve actually got things to do.
It’s my Nans birthday today, so I’m popping up to see her in a bit, take her some presents.
Tomorrow I’m going up to the College to enrol on my courses, Wednesday is my signing day, and on Friday I’ve got my ultrasound appointment.
Will keep you informed.
Everything is once again rosy. A little hazy, but rosy.
Apologies for causing alarm.
Orca’s done a bang up job on the site, but me saying I’ll do all this for a new site… I’m going to College to do a Dreamweaver course, not a hardcore coding course. I know me, I’ll put it off and put it off, never finish it. The whole site thing was a pretty silly idea to begin with, I mean, what could possibly be put up there that we couldn’t simply post up on a forum?
I feel like we’ve just wasted £90, and in our situation we really can’t afford that.
Do I really want to do web design? Or is this just me being me again and not wanting to try something new because I’m so un-confident in my abilities?
