The Only Way To Stop Smoking Permanantly has arrived! It’s much thicker than Easyway, and the print is tiny! It’ll take a while to get through this one.
Still, fingers crossed!
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Failed today. I was smoke-free for around 16 hours. Rubbish. I finished re-reading the Easyway book last night and figured there’s no time like the present, so stopped smoking at about 9pm, had a nice long chat to Jane about random things, slept, got up, played a bit of Marvel vs Capcom 3, and whilst I was waiting for lunch at about half 12, just thought I should go and buy some cigarettes. This time I was not in the same positive mental state as I was last time, and was actually thinking about smoking more than I was on Attempt #1. Easyway says I should naturally dislike the smell of tobacco smoke, and that I will have worked hard to become addicted in the first place. I think I’ve been addicted to nicotine my entire life. My Nan and Grandad used to smoke loads when I was young, so I’ve never been averse to the smell, I’ve always been used to breathing it in. When I had my first cigarette at a youth club back when I was fifteen I couldn’t wait to try my next one the following week. At that point I never had money, so didn’t buy my own, I just used to have some of the communal cigarettes that were bought on Wednesday nights. When I did start getting pocket money, it all went on fags. I’m upset with myself that I continue to poison myself and am slowly destroying my body. Something just tells me to buy them and smoke them, even though when I do pop outside to have one I’m usually grimacing because I hate what I’m doing to myself (and Jane, by slowly killing myself) so much, and am cold or wet because of the weather. I’ve ordered the follow-up book, The Only Way To Stop Smoking Permanently, so will read that and try… No! Not try! I will succeed! I will read that and succeed.
Beautiful shot showing off the glow of an exploding rocket. Be sure to visit the Screenshot Thread on the RF forum to submit your own screenshots, and you can find other Screenshots of the Week on here by using the SotW tag, and screenshots, films, clips, gametypes and map variants created by Random Fury! members by searching for the “rfury” tag on Bungie.net. Failed this afternoon. I was smoke-free for twenty hours, which is quite pathetic to be honest! I smoked my last cigarette at 6pm last night. After which, Jane and I went out and had a lovely meal for Valentines/to celebrate me getting past the twelve weeks at Asda, and I didn’t have a nicotine related pang at all. We got home and watched a Jimmy Carr DVD, then went to bed. I was feeling good at that point – in fact, I was feeling good at work today too. I got up, had a cup of green tea and a yoghurt, had a shower, got ready for work, got the bus to work, and generally done some work at work. I even spent an hour on the checkouts and it was fine, I wasn’t stressed or grouchy, I was feeling great. I went for lunch, had a sandwich and a drink, then, five minutes before I was due to go back, I had an irresistible urge to go and buy some cigarettes. So I went and bought some cigarettes, and smoked one. I’m annoyed at myself for giving in so fucking easily. It’s not like I was moping, or generally being an ass because I wanted a cigarette, I was fine. More than fine in fact, I felt great. I cannot understand why I gave in so easily. Maybe I read the book too quickly, I was kind of in a rush to finish it last night. Maybe I didn’t absorb the information because I read it so quickly, I don’t know. I think I’ll read the book again, at a slower pace, give myself time to absorb and understand it, then have another go. I bought Allen Carr’s “Easy Way To Stop Smoking” today. I dearly want to stop smoking, and apparently this is the easiest way to do it. I’m not doing it because it’s the easiest way to be honest, it’s just that I’ve tried using my willpower and nicotine replacement products before, and it made me miserable as I was always pining for a cigarette. The guy in the shop said he’d used it and he’s now a non-smoker and it didn’t make him miserable or spend his life pining for another cigarette. I’m going to give it a good go, I cannot be a smoker for the rest of my life, it is killing me. I’ve decided it’s time. What spurred me on? I’m fed up of being fat, basically! Back when I had Norovirus, I lost 10lbs in the space of two days, and seeing my weight below 19 stone on the scales was invigorating! I know I didn’t lose it fair and square, and I put over half of it back on when I felt better and started eating again, but man, it was proof that I could lose weight, if you know what I mean. Just after that, I started working at Asda, and being active paid real dividends. I walk home from work (unless it’s raining), and have recently started lifting weights. I had been meaning to buy some for ages, and working at Asda has finally enabled me to afford some. Fat arms are rubbish, and I’m starting to see results already. I’m hoping to get a rowing machine soon, an hour of cardio-vascular thrice a week would help burn off some of the stubborn weight around my middle that lifting weights and walking home from work doesn’t really shift. All in all, I’ve lost around four stone. This time last year I was 21 stone. Three months ago, before I started work, I was 19 and a half stone. This morning I was 17 stone and 5lbs. I’ve cut out all sorts of things, from Coke to coffee (green tea every morning – sorts me out nicely), and giving up smoking is the next logical step. For all the effort I put in doing weights and eating healthy food, it reduces the benefits. I know it’ll be hard, it was damn hard last time I tried (and failed), as the first little thing that went wrong catapulted me back to cigarettes. I’ve just got to overcome the mental hurdle – I’ve nothing to gain by continuing smoking, nothing good comes of it – although it won’t feel like that.
Her Fearful SymmetryBy Audrey Niffenegger Now, I loved The Time Traveller’s Wife, I absolutely adored it. It was so well written and thoughtful, so naturally, I had high hopes for this: Audrey Niffenegger’s next book. I’m not going to beat around the bush. It was slow to get going, I found the characters quite boring and in some cases unlikeable, and the whole premise was slightly too far-fetched (Yes – even compared to a man who spontaneously travels through time). It struck me that it was a bit too easy for Elspeth (a ghost) to learn to exert herself upon the real world. Surely if it were that easy, everyone would do it. I thought it was a bit too predictable in places too, and the ending was very unsatisfactory. One of the best bits of The Time Traveller’s Wife was that it was so intensely sexy at times – I would’ve liked more of that, and less of the awkward teenage angst. Speaking of the intensely sexy The Time Traveller’s Wife – I watched the big screen adaptation of it recently. Boy, was I let down, again. They missed out several important characters and details, such as Henry’s ex (and how she died), ruined some of the mystery by showing the passage of time in a very strange order (compared to the book, anyhow), and glossed over some of the unexpected outcomes of the unexpected situations that emerged from Henry’s unexpected visits. Also, it wasn’t intensely sexy. Support RF! Buy this book through Waterstones, our affiliate. |
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